you’ll be
ashamed
i’ll be
disgraced
you’ll move away
and i’ll stay
here.
in the loneliest place
emptier with the
absence of your face
it’s not
how I imagined
the culmination
of my plans
but in the long run
karma always wins

i’m not an
astro chemical transmologist
but I’m pretty sure
I’m bedazzled
and your my missing
molecule of hydrogen

everybody wants to know
everybody, wants too.
everybody wants to know,
the truth.
what happened
to us
what happened
to me
what happened
to you
but i myself
don’t even know
can you keep a secret?
keep it if you want too
just between
me and you
i know i can
i know you do
just between
me and you
i’d be happier
if i didn’t have too

calloused
tired hands
spend their energy
willing their way
across paper
spilling out phrases
in stages
digitally
sometimes these words
land awkwardly
like paw prints
in the sand
you can’t blame them
but you cant
excuse the pattern
back to square one

he can’t watch
life slip away
sitting at that desk
tried that
lost the fight
to the hottest mess
coiled and sprung
those nerves of steel
rusted with sweat
bound to the earth
in sediments
flesh mixed in
as a catalyst
frozen in time
as the concrete sets
such a small job
the laborer hardly sweats
schedule says
8 hours
so he fucked off the rest
cant complain
about the steady pay checks
cant complain
sitting on the fence
the only thing he regrets
is he never regrets
not even
the heaving of an empty chest
boxed in a stucco canvas
doesn’t need it now
that’s he’s digressed
no big gain
for a small feat
no big gain
for a small feat
no big gain
for a small feat
no big gain.

so your going north
to escape your…
that’s another story
for the mouths of time
another lesson
you can’t leave behind
not that I
can change your mind
but nothing heals
wounds like these
better than time
so your heading north
or whatever
I’m left here
with this
emptiness
or whatever
i can’t make you stay
my hands are tied
and
my lips were sealed
by a finger
pressed against my…
so your moving
north for the summer
but it’s not seasonal
it’s forever

just laugh
and say its cute
i’m surrendering
the never ending
high speed pursuit

she is my
poisoned apple
and i
took a second bite
now i
cant stop my
mind
from racing
nor can i
sleep
at night

hours are liars
minutes
abed the enemy
seconds move to favor themselves
you’ll see

for time
is no friend of mine
brings me to my knees
almost effortlessly
and for years now
Ive been holding myself down

i know i
cant be the why
or happy until i
swallow your poison

choke on
words
i might of said
or meant to
eject from my head
a moment
too late
as its
always said….

my head swims
while my
mind drowns

get the hard
part down

get the hard
part down

you’re a
fleeting moment
you have
no history with this
this is the end
and its
as bitter as
the sweetest taste
as it flees your lips