i’m at a loss 
for words
i know
it’s unimaginable 
you say
i can speak until
i’m breathless
on any given day
but pay my silence
no matter
for this time 
it gives way
to a moment of
clarity 
a realization
these are the
only words 
i need to say
i love you

peel away the shade
let the sun cut through my soul
today, the vine dies

it’s in my sadness 
where you will find me this time 
trapped in my head

stuck there with all the
words said, over and over
crushing me each time

randomly, depressed
states of being, that is me
life is hard sometimes

and i feel the pinch
when a winters day reveal
returns to memory

for her, this all is
failure to deliver, twas
on me, my sad heart

waves lap the starboard
hull filled with the salted sea
now we list, adrift

how it spins
and spins
all widdershins
from spittle
chins
to kicked in
shins
pearlescent
scales
to dorsal fins
dirty
needles and
punk rock
pins
sleepless from
mini thins
tattooed notes
on leathered skins
games of skill
and their scoreless
wins
the happy eyes
with toothless grins
how it spin’s
and spins
until its done
a clock
un-spun

the cold air whips fraught 
a shiver brings pause whilst i 
lose all but the thoughts

its the icy freeze
oh warm-blooded me stopped by
florida’s cold breeze

stirred from
slumber
waking up
to realize

that i’ve
been betrayed
by my
own eyes

these hands,
are they
my dearest 
friend

searching for
the focals 
that buck this
trend

my, oh my…
this is my
myopic view

if you’re within
two feet
i can
no longer 
see you

one 
point two five
brings
sharpened sight 

that youthful
arrogance 
lost
overnight