nay, all of your thoughts
need not be spoken aloud
bite tongue, hold your truth

today
i yearn for
deaths
warm grip
fingers wrapped
tightly
around my neck
free me of
my last breath
break me
so I can collapse
into the
darkest
of darkness
this is me
at my saddest

lost beyond
the confines
of
my
mind
tapping out
words
with these
these
fucking fingers
fumbling
rummaging
through my head
i am
a jumbled mess
sometimes
in rhyme
others
under duress

my blind eyes
watch as
light
it dances
on her
soul
warm
from the sun
from the love
of everyone
but not of
that which is
loveless
or cold
from
lack of oxygen

turning blue
floating
on the water
wakeless
i won’t bother
the time waster
or perhaps
well spent
for now
i’ll argue
there isn’t
a difference

i can breathe
you in
until your gone
lack of oxygen

i can’t breathe
you in
cause
i’m gone
lack of oxygen

when the
universe
pauses and
grants you a gift
don’t stop
to count
the stars

let the colors taste
as the sun drinks the ocean
and i sail the skies

it’s not a truth
no, it’s
more of a
means to an end
one where
i pretend
i can will
cupids arrow to bend
it’s not a goal
nor a path of mine
but if i
venture in any direction
i find
the same point in time
looping back
to start
if else
and declare
a recursive script
do until
you find a matching pair

a daily greeting 
from a friendly smiling face
tell her, you love her

repeating
behaviors
a past that
presently
haunts 

breaking free
isn’t as
easy as
one 
would 
of thought

jealous man
was i?
i was.
not a
handsome look

love matched
a fire fueled
by a heart
that slowly
cooks

mmm, she rolls her hips
fingers glide, as her dress lifts
brings me release, quick

tone deaf
i can’t sing
rhythmless
i can’t dance
she, reminds me

heartless
i can’t love
truth-less
i can’t find me
breathless
i can’t breathe

curled around her
soaked with regret
sleepless
no dream sequence
drawn in closer
i love you
she, reminds me