for every mile
in an elevator
riding its cables
stretched end
to end
lingering with
downward gazed
see you laters
and maybes
that tomorrow
there will be
a better opportunity
there is still
today

you can
go to sleep
i will
stay awake
sailing this ship
from place to place
and when
we get to
our port of call
you’ll
hear this
empty sound
steel walls
echoing
a reply
time to
wake up
pry your
eyes open
let the light
wake you
let the light
creep in
there isn’t
just one thing
there is only
everything
i don’t want
your love
i don’t want
your soul
but i need
all of you

her eyes are darting
scanning the room
for something to
remind her not too
and if you pay attention
you’ll see her lips parting
so a sigh can escape
as she realizes
this course I’m charting
plows right through her
devouring
her soul
feeling wet
with the weight of my eyes
pressing in
on the taste of skin
i’m soaked through
my mouth is full
with the taste of you
i can’t erase
the time or the days
and for each that comes
it feels as if
it will never fade
she says
no! no. no.
but I know
i know i know
she means
yes! yes! yes!
she’s just as
hesitant
and now lust
consumes our thoughts

i will
hold it in
you will
laugh out loud
it will
be like yesterday
or any other day
that will
never come back around
and so i smile
just for now
fuck time
fuck the cause
all its promises
of previously arranged
end of life commitments
just for now
but instead
i will sink down
with my makeshift frown
burrowing
into the throws
and furrow
where my
conscious riddles
keep it close
for what she knows
push her away
if feelings show
and never regret
anything that hasn’t happened yet

its not guilt that restricts me
but the glimmer of happiness
that escapes me
all the easier
to forget
breathing ceases
my eyes vignette
the edges disappear
and i remember
the ways i can find you

have you ever tasted a memory
like fresh snow falling
from an empty sky
or rain that falls
when there aren’t clouds for miles
not a miracle
more like an anomaly
…just like me

if my fear
grants me freedom
then I’m afraid this cell
will be the last thing I remember

stuck
in this room
drunk
on the scent of your perfume
its been hours since you left
and I still smell you

clinging to
molecules
enveloping
particles
dispersing
pheromones

all of this is
mother natures answer
to my captor
equipped with
intricately
mapped fractals
encrypted
indecipherable messages
wrapped in
endless miles of…
and even deeper
sighs

erased in space
an alternate place
between fallen from
and brought to grace
like purgatory
except its boring me
to sleep
i am
breaking in
the taste of skin
claw and grasp
air grows thin
i am
just a mistake
you’ll soon learn that
i am just one
of many more
yet to come

don’t fret yourself
with the things I think about
i assure you that it’s often
but more often less than
sometimes it’s not at all