you say
i’m in league
with the darkness
i love
how warm it is
enveloped in an
ever expanding blackness
i never waste time
worrying
about a means
to who’s end
and who needs friends
when they mean nothing anyway
i laugh and nod
it’s true
at least…
that’s what they say

she is as brilliant as the moon
makes her entrance
and fills the room
the darkest corner comes to light
like smiles escaping gloom

this spectacle leaves me awestruck
and wrestling with my tongue
over what words apply
cause they all seem right
until my mouth opens
and they come out all wrong

releasing an incoherent blur
with drunken lisp and slur
even if I could explain
none if it would matter
she thinks she’s being clever
conveniently making it
more comfortable for her
by assigning tasks that are impossible
or at best, improbable.

It’s not my fault
i’m finding
you intoxicating
as soon as
i breathe you in
the room starts to spin
the walls they cave in
and I can
barely control myself
i’m not sure what it is
or what it was
but there’s a lesson
i probably should of learned
a long long time ago

she said what the fuck
this has to stop
we can’t keep on
but you keep coming on
and i don’t have the will
to keep fighting you off
somethings gotta give
cause it feels too good
and I’m starting to wish
for more and more…

i’d pour my heart out
until nothings left
and i’ll find there isn’t
much for me to object
as hours slide by
the more I find my
lost connections
and stern objections
are just imagined
an elaborate
alternate reality
i’ve become trapped in

you pretend to struggle
although we both know
its futile to resist
and our lips connect
the sensation lifts
releasing waves of energy
in convulsive fits

concentrating on
pulling you in
by the
nape of your neck
as my fingers
grip your skin
following a gasp
you’re chasing
your breath
all while I’m
drawing the air
out of your lungs
just as easily
as these
word spill
from my tongue

you pretend to struggle
although we both know…
its futile to resist

it’s been weeks
since my mind dried up
the silence is relaxing
but I’ve been thinking
and yeah
that’s oh so dangerous…

ive got
something against
people in love
yes
some still chase
that myth
wide eyed
and
bushy tailed
jumping
head first
into the abyss
no questions asked
gone for days
but never
missed
rather than
being happy
with
finding any hint
of happiness
we seek to
detach this
emotion
cause its
selfish
and most often
misinterpreted

i smoke
for silence
it’s the only thing that quiets
the voices in my head
i drink
to forget
that i seek silence
that’s when i say
all the things better left unsaid
i sleep
out of habit
but in my dreams i don’t find solace
for me there is no rest
i wake
for life
because even though i can’t see it
i am still here for a reason.

unfettered
but still tethered
to what makes me
me
all that I am
is what i spout
so eloquently
verses of word
nouns and verbs
from the believable
to the completely absurd
each is a little piece of me
the kind of stuff
they auction silently
not correcting disparity
or seeking a higher
element for clarity
this is reality
and its a rarity
but here it is
raw in the flesh
no need to fear me
and all my flaws
so many
that i can’t count them
and now matter how hard i try
i will never surmount them
when you are born to be
someone like me
its just a natural occurrence
there is no breaking free

so I came around
yeah I found my way
and when I saw you
i had nothing to say
my thoughts and words
all just melted away

i climbed and climbed
until I ran out of rope
that’s when I heard the laughing
i guess now I’m the joke
nothing but empty mouths
and all I did was choke