a flaw

a flaw
no matter
how small
is enough
to make
my skin crawl
so i
find myself
stressed
under duress
my mind
churns out
more thoughts
than i can
possibly
digest
and no matter
how hard i try
to shake it
I still feel useless

fetal position
quiver and try
to make sense
but it’s hard to
when everything
comes up fictitious
lies now surmount
the ones that
were dispelled previous
and the empty
hollow shell
grows more obvious
its not a moment
captured
but a prison cell
that never releases
its captives

data banks

biologically
our minds can
only hold so much
and with a rush
new sensations
i find my
data banks are full

with so many
things to forget
i cant choose
which ones
to keep
which to
pass through
the membrane
between skull
and brain

release to the
ions of carbon
permeating
every living cell
recall a taste
then it fades
a forever imprinted
isotope decay

birthday presents

who wants to
be reminded of
everything they ever
did wrong
happy birthday
who wants to kick in
the teeth of
the one who’s smiling
happy birthday

33 years
to the day
what a way to say
happy birthday

last year
no presents
just a kiss
this year is
a reminder
nothing good
ever happened on this day
happy birthday

take a deep breath now
and blow the candles out
make a wish,
make sure
you have something
left to long for…
happy birthday.